how do i live? ;'(

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
how do I live?

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

remember-ing

every night,
i always think about this damn problem :(

i remember about that day, january 4th 2011
the day when i broke up with him.
when he told me that he has his own way to forget me,
he want to obviate me, i felt like my whole world was fell down.

after couple hours i thought about that,
finally i decided to follow his way, obviate him too.

i always remember what i've said to him.
"ok, from now on, i'll try to obviate you, as you wish. i'm sorry if I was always selfish. thank you for your kindness and your attention to me. take care :')"
i cried.

AND FORTUNATELY,
he said that he couldn't obviate me for now.
ooh damn, i felt like my whole world come back again to me, just for me!

i don't know, i can't imagine,
when someday he will obviate me,
maybe i will be a marionette, be silent, do nothing, just shed tears.

:'(

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hey, a :)

Do not ever doubt my love!
it is real and will forever be like that.

i love you,goodbye :')

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me

Leaving someone when you love someone is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye :')

it's over

i hate it.
i hate it.
REALLY HATE IT!!

i've broke up with him, but honestly i don't wanna lose him.
i love him so much, but i think we won't have any good future in this relationship.
i don't know how to past this problem.

i always cry everday. whenever i see our memories lyk photos, bbm capture it, voice notes, etc, i can't lie to myself that i'm still so in love with him.
but, we know we can't do this anymore.
it's not because we don't want, but it's a MUST!
damn!
i hate this!
why it happened with me?!
damn!!!!!!!!

speechless.
but, thanks for being one of the best part of my life.
you'll never be replaced :)

28.11.09 - 04.01.11