LOVABLE

how do i live? ;'(

2011-01-31T12:43:00.001+07:00

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
how do I live?

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

remember-ing

2011-01-14T22:56:00.002+07:00

every night,
i always think about this damn problem :(

i remember about that day, january 4th 2011
the day when i broke up with him.
when he told me that he has his own way to forget me,
he want to obviate me, i felt like my whole world was fell down.

after couple hours i thought about that,
finally i decided to follow his way, obviate him too.

i always remember what i've said to him.
"ok, from now on, i'll try to obviate you, as you wish. i'm sorry if I was always selfish. thank you for your kindness and your attention to me. take care :')"
i cried.

AND FORTUNATELY,
he said that he couldn't obviate me for now.
ooh damn, i felt like my whole world come back again to me, just for me!

i don't know, i can't imagine,
when someday he will obviate me,
maybe i will be a marionette, be silent, do nothing, just shed tears.

:'(

luluh :'(

2011-01-14T22:54:00.001+07:00

Saat terindah saat bersamamu begitu lelapnya aku pun terbuai
Sebenarnya aku tlah berharap ku kan memiliki dirimu selamanya

Segenap hatiku luluh lantah
mengiringi dukaku yang kehilangan dirimu
sungguh ku tak mampu tuk meredam
kepedihan hatiku untuk merelakan kepergianmu

Ingin kuyakini cinta takkan berakhir
namun takdir menuliskan Kita harus berakhir

hey, a :)

2011-01-13T23:46:00.001+07:00

Do not ever doubt my love!
it is real and will forever be like that.

i love you,goodbye :')

2011-01-13T23:42:00.003+07:00

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me

Leaving someone when you love someone is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye :')

it's over

2011-01-13T23:27:00.002+07:00

i hate it.
i hate it.
REALLY HATE IT!!

i've broke up with him, but honestly i don't wanna lose him.
i love him so much, but i think we won't have any good future in this relationship.
i don't know how to past this problem.

i always cry everday. whenever i see our memories lyk photos, bbm capture it, voice notes, etc, i can't lie to myself that i'm still so in love with him.
but, we know we can't do this anymore.
it's not because we don't want, but it's a MUST!
damn!
i hate this!
why it happened with me?!
damn!!!!!!!!

speechless.
but, thanks for being one of the best part of my life.
you'll never be replaced :)

28.11.09 - 04.01.11

one day with my mom!

2010-06-16T20:10:00.004+07:00

hour ini emang uda ada rencana dari lama mau pegy sama nykp. nykp sengaja ambil off (cuti) biar bisa jalan2. tp sayangnya gw aja bangun jm stgah2. OMG. hahaha.

abis itu buru2 deh siap2, tp masi bingung mau kmna.

akhirnya d putuskan k puri aja (tempat paling terjangkau dari rumah).

pas uda siap mau pegy, tnyta STNK mobil kbawa sama koko gw yg gembelatos ituu!! OMG.

uda males banget tdnya, cuma uda siap2 males jg klo gga jadi. akhirnya pesen taxi.

dateng2, laper!

langsung kita k tempat shabu tei.

d liat2 ada bnyak diskon yee, mandiri, mega, XL pada diskon 50%. sayang kartu nykap yg mega ilang! apbolbu pake card BCA gw yg diskon 30%. eh tba2 nykap kepikiran ssuatu yg licik.

dy beli nomor XL baru d oke shop seharga 2500 rupiah, dan akhirnya mendapat diskon 50%! HAHAHAHA. gaol bener nykp.

abis itu, sbnernya mau ntn sex and the city 2, eh tnyta uda turun layar!

sedih bangett akhirnya gga ntn tuh film!!! ggrr.

akhirnya belanja d hero. mau beli jeruk nipis tdnya. tp akhirnya gga jadi beli karena 6 BUTIR JERUK NIPIS SEHARGA 18RB!!! MIKAAAAYYYY!!!

akhirnya belanja yg aneh2 aja dehh. chiki, minman, dll. faktor yg menyebabkan kegembulan! hmmm.

pas lewat sushi kiosk gw membujuk nykap masuk k dalem dan gw membeli UNAGI ONIGIRI!

gw bawa pulang dehh. ahhahaha.

abis itu gw segera pulang karena sudah lelah dan sakit perut!!!! HAHAHAH.

i really love this day, one day with my lovely mom!

thanks mom :)

have fun today !

2010-06-15T19:16:00.005+07:00

setelah pergumulan yang panjang dan hampir menyerah kmren, akhirnya gw tetep pergi jg hari ini. tadinya gw cuma sama gaby. hopeless, bingung mau ajak siapa. ngjak ela, caca, sama lika ternyata mereka gga bisa. howee. d tengah2 kebingungan, tba2 priscil comment d status gw blg kalo dy ikut pergi. dan tandanya dewi jg bisa ikut karena ada priscil. NICE!

akhirnya gw, gaby, priscil dan dewi pergi juga k puri dan langsung menyambar hanamasa! haha.

dengan kebrutalan kita, kita lgsung menyerbu makanan tanpa dosa.

kebodohan priscil dah bener2, dy langsung membakar daging tanpa bumbu dlu, dan akhirnya lengket2 dah tuh daging d tempat bakar itu! udah d blgin berkali-kali tapi dy tetep ngeyel dan sering bgt lupa. akhirnya bnyak serpihan2 kecil d tempat bakar itu dan lengkett.

klo d makan bener2 garing kyak chiki gara2 gosong, hahahaha. dan anehnya tetep kite makan2in aja. wakkakaka.

beralih k tempat rebusnya.

gw mengambil makanan yg sangat bnyak sperti anak labil dan menyisakan sangat bnyak makanan. gw berpikir anak2 rakus itu bakal ngabisin itu tp ternyata mereka gga suka.

yah, sayangg bgt deh T.T

terus KERANG IJO!

kerang yg udah d rebus sama kita d ambil gaby dan dy bilang itu kerang kurang gizi! karena dagingnya dikitttt banget.

dengan kreatifnya, kerang yg uda d rebus itu d bakar dengan brutal sama dy.

tp dy blg sih enakan d bakar dlo.

akhirnya gw pun penasaran dengan kerang ijo bakar itu, dan gw mencomot kerang itu setelah rebutan sama priscil dan dewi.

ternyataa rasanya sangat...

TIDAK ENAK!!

gw bener2 bingung knp gaby bisa bilang itu enakk. hoeekk.

abis itu tanpa tujuan kita muter2 puri. k oke shop, gramedia, dan mendarat d food court karena ujan! kita tdakk bisa pulaanggg! aaaaaa.

dan puri mati lampu sampe 2x.

si gaby ngmg, "itu gimana yah yg lagi maen roller coaster?"

waduh bingung jugaaa yaa, serem banget, untung masa2 mkkb kita uda lewat jad gga maen itu.

hahaha.

setelah capai akhirnya kita pulang dan menempuh perjalanan yg BECEK dan MACET!!

but it was really such a great day for us.

i hope someday BENCHI will go together without leave anybody!

...

2010-06-15T00:58:00.003+07:00

SORRY I MUST TELL THIS !

BUT I FEEL DISAPPOINTED WITH 'YOU' !!

capek!

2010-06-15T00:49:00.004+07:00

gw tau gga ada manusia yg sempurna d dunia ini. gw tau gw bnyak salah. dan gw gga slalu bener.

gw tau gw juga salah kalo menghakimi orang tanpa melihat k diri gw sndiri. gw tau itu.

tp yg gw rasain itu gw cape.

CAPE banget knpa smua itu terjadi sama gw dan lingkungan gw?

apa emang smua orang bakal punya cobaan yg kyak gini? apa bener?

bukan mau gw kalo gw KESEL sama orang laen.

bukan mau gw kalo gw BENCI sama orang laen.

bukan mau gw kalo gw MARAH sama orang laen.

gw selalu mencoba untuk NETRAL seperti bbrapa teman gw yg bisa bersikap seperti itu.

ge juga selalu mencoba untuk POSITIVE THINKING seperti yg teman gw selalu suruh.

tapi gw akuin. itu bener2 SUSAH!

gw selalu berusaha menahan diri gw supaya gga cepet punya pikiran jelek k orang,

tp gw selalu GAGAL!

Gw bener2 cape dengan apa yg terjadi d hidup gw skrang ini!

12 June 2010, i'm coming!

2010-06-12T00:45:00.006+07:00

besok adalah hari pelepasan kelas 12 anak-anak SMA Vianney. Hari yg udah d tunggu2 oleh smua anak angkatan kelas 12 untuk pelepasan, dmna artinya kita uda bener2 keluar dari sekolah dan guru2 gga punya tanggung jawab lg terhadap kita.

mungkin bagi sbagian anak yang klulusannya tertunda waktu itu uda bisa bernapas lega. karena pada awal bulan Juni ini, pengumuman kelulusan UAN ulang udah keluar dan hasilnya bener2 mmbuat kita smua lega karena akhirnya kita bisa bilang k orang2 kalo VIANNEY LULUS 100%.

yapp,

acara yg bakal d adain besok adalah misa, pemberian pernghargaan bagi murid2 yg berprestasi selama d SMA Vianney ini dan pelepasan kembali kita k orang tua masing2.

bener,

mungkin sbgian orang brtanya, bgtu aja acaranya? gga ada prom night dan sejenisnya?

jawabannya adalah GGA ADA.

emang sih cukup kecewa apalgi kita bner2 gga ad year book jg.

cuma gga ad yg boleh d sesalin lg, emang kenyataan na seprti itu dan kita uda gga bsa ngpa2in lg.

bsok adalah hari terakhir kita make seragam kebangkaan PUTIH ABU-ABU.

dan kyna gga akan pernah kita pke lg slamanya.

itu berarti kita gga bole nyia2in kesempatan terakhir itu.

so,

LET'S PARTY TOGETHER!!! XD

always be my baby

2010-05-21T02:51:00.004+07:00

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

Try Out II

2010-02-04T20:31:00.004+07:00

Senin sampe Rabu kmren itu adalah TO kedua !

Senin = FISIKA EN INGGRIS

*hmm . fisika si emank gga yakin dpet bgus , cuma yg ada d pikiran gw "nilai kali ini harus jauh lebihh better dr TO ptama" . dengan pkiran kyak gtu gw berhasil menjawab 26 nomor dr 40 . dan bner nyaa 20 . jad nilai na 50 dehh !!! sdkittt lagi mencapai target , tp TO berikutna pasti bisa kok ! hahahha , klo inggris yahh bisa la yaaaa , LANJUT !*

Selasa = MATEMATIKA EN BIOLOGI

*ini yang bner2 gila . gw bljar mati2an untuk mat na . krena target dr bu woro , gw hrus bisa kerjain 18 nomor . klo ggw katana d suru bunuh diri d wastafel . belajar , belajar , trus pas les jam stgh 7 , gw bru taw kalo TO na it MAT SAMA BIO !!! gw kira mat sama indo !!! OMIGOSH . itu menyebabkan gw gga bljar bio . yah untungna si pas les d primagama , kbetulan dpet jatah na pel bio . jad y bljar2 lah dkit . hahahha . PAS TO MAT NA D BAGI , how lucky i am , gw bner 18 . pas bget sama target na !! hahahhahaa . thanks GOD . hehehe . laluuuuu , pas biologi . gw bner2 ENEG liat soalna . gw gga ngerti sama sekalii . akhirnya gw jawab berdasarkan FEELING !! hahaha . yg konyol mah pas ad soal ttg sendi gtuu . gw liat si stella langsung gerak2 gtu , bahu na d puter2 , mau mastiin bisa gerak k segala arah gga . wakakkaa . konyol . gw inget bget tuh soal . cacat !! hehehehhe*

Rabu = KIMIA EN INDO

*KIMIA ??? denger kata2 itu langsung pasrah . karena gw gga ngert sama sekalee . yg da bisa mampus mah paling cuma konfigurasi elektron , oktan , trus auu dah apaan agy . mumet . alhasil saya nyontek sajja lahh . nanya2 . wakkakaakka . trus indo yaaaaah , bisa lah yaa . hehehehhe*

harapan GW ,

smoga TO berikutna nilai ad d tingkat AMAN .

dan smoga pas UAN , smua anak klas 3 LULUS 100% dengan nilai yg tinggi .

AMIN :)

nopha.love.ay

VCXA

2010-01-14T20:57:00.003+07:00

hwaaaa .

hari ini ulangan fisikaa !!

bisa sii ngerjain na , peer juga buat sendiri kugg , gga nyontek .

* uda mulai sadar *

belajar mati2an .

nyoba2 ngerjain soal trus sampe bisa .

tpii sayang naa !!!

d nomor 10 !! gw lupa jadiin Joule k eV !

oh my God !

knp yaaa dar dlu gw gga pnah teliti kalo ngerjain ulangan ??

salahh na sepele bgett !!

huhuhuhuh .

ya , moga2 ajj lulus .

AMIN !!

nopha.love.ay

everything is GONNA BE ALRIGHT :)

2010-01-11T20:17:00.005+07:00

in this CRAZY life , people have they own PROBLEMS .

they have different problems that must be solved by themself .

i have my own problem .

my friends have their own problem .

every little problem is a way that GOD gives to us to make us more MATURE to face the reality of life .

it's to early to say "GIVE UP" when GOD gives u a problem .

GOD always gives us a problem because HE loves us . and we can THROUGH it all . OF COURSE .

for my friends .

i know what kind of problems that u face now .

i know it's very hard and MAYBE i never ever have that kind of PROBLEMS .

but i know u can face it guys .

TRUST me .

don't ever think that GOD is leaving u ! NO ! it's a BIG NO NO .

He'll always beside u .

He'll accompany u .

GOD LOVES U . I LOVE U ALL .

especially for BENCHI .

* i DO LOVE YOU GUYS ! *

nopha.love.ay

new year

2010-01-05T11:25:00.003+07:00

new year kmren seruu bget . BBQ sama fam . ngerasa makin deket sama FAM . hehehe .

walopun gw BODOH , gw sempet NANGIS karena gga bisa ketemu sama AYANG .

yang bikin nyesek adalah JARAK gw sama dy .

karena 3 yg CACAT , sinyal gga ad , sms gga bsa , telpon gga bisa , akhirna gw gga tau kalo ternyata dy ad d HUM FRIDA yg jarak na gga lebih dari 15 meter dar hum gw !!

sakit ati .

dan bodohnya gw menangis d telpon sama dy pagi2 .

stupid !

nopha.love.ay

i do love my hair !!

2009-12-28T01:21:00.004+07:00

25.12.09

merry xmas !!

TUGAS CHOIR

HAVING FUN

MERRY XMAS WITH FAM

SHOPPING

nice christmas :)

2009-12-28T01:13:00.002+07:00

NATAL kalii ini bener2 asik . tugas choir dapet applause sampe 2x , ngumpul2 bareng keluarga , shopping , dapet duit jjan :)

gyahaha . asiik bget dehh .

cuma yang d sayangkan GENAP 7 hari deh gw gga ketemu AYANG !! huweee .

but it's okay .

Natal kalii ini memang krang berkesan karena gga semua keluarga ngmpul , greja juga gga lengkap . duduk na mencar2 . huwee .

BUT , I DO LOVE CHRISTMAS !!

nopha.love.ay

BBQ time ! :)

2009-12-22T21:45:00.002+07:00

wuah seneng bget BBQ-an sama anak2 . BBQ-an na AGAY ma KECON yg traktir karna mereka ULTAH . haha .

yang paling asikk agy , gw sama2 terus sama AYANG . dari jam stgh 9 malem sampe jam 5 pagi . hwaaa ~

rasanya gga pngen PULANG !! T.T

lebihh asoy agy kita MINUM2 . pada beli beli BLACK LABEL , trus satu agy gw lupa . haha .

mantavv sekalii !! lumayan bnyak la minum na . hwahwa ~

yang paling penting , GW NGERASA ENJOY BGET !! :)

nopha.love.ay

LICKER !

2009-12-21T13:42:00.001+07:00

APAAN TUH ? NGAKU NA TEMEN ! SLAMA INI PEGY BARENG2 . TAPII AP MAKSUD TUH PERKATAAN LUU D STATUS SI SEKYA ?! BANCI LU !

SLAMA INI D DPAN DIEM2 DOANK KERJAAN NA ! TAE !

KALO LU EMANK GGA SUKA MA KITA ORANG , BILANG AJJ !

PAKE BLG "ANAK IPA TAPI KEG GTU!"

EH SADAR YA ! LU JUGA ANAK IPA , DAN KELAKUAN LU LEBIH RENDAH !!!!!

CUKUP TAW AJJ YAA WILLIAM ISKANDAR !!

nopha.love.ay

happy sunday !

2009-12-20T23:44:00.003+07:00

hari ini bermula keasikan dari menginap na sang manusia KABUR2AN , yaitu PRISCIL . haha . bangun na siang bner agy tuh BOCAH ! wakakakak . trus kita makan d KADIR * itu loh bakso yang d bojong , yang enagg bget ! *

abis ituu , pulang agy k HUM GW . laluuu , siap2 buat k YAYI * tempat makan d jalan panjang * karena hari ini ad ACARA MAKAN2 KKN . hohohoho .

dsana kita menghasilkan PULUHAN VOTO !

ad kejadian yg biikin gw SHOCK juga sii . pas lagi voto2 , tiba2 lampu JATUH teapat d belakang gw . GOD BLESS ME . pdhal tempat jatohna lampu itu , tempat voto2 gw 3menit yg laluu . wewww .

ini dia tempat na .

posing in YAYI

abis itu malem naa ngmpul2 d hum frida , lalu gw ketemu AYANG . y ampun gw KANGEN bget sama dy . heheehehe .

* gga sabar menanti BBQ hari ini bersama TEMAN2 dan AYANG *

nopha.love.ay

someday

2009-12-19T15:45:00.003+07:00

wahh , tempat yang nama na JETSKI CAFE asikk bget ! two thumbs up deh buat yang punya . KONSEP na bagus bangett . ahahha .

impian gw , gw mau BAWA COWO gw buat nongkrong dsna . tempatt na bner2 ROMANTIS !! haha . gga nyesel gw ksana .

kapan yah gw ksana sama COWO GW ??

hwehwhehweh :)

nopha.love.ay

RAPOR ! :(

2009-12-19T02:04:00.003+07:00

hmm , uda jam 2 pagee . gw blom ngntuk juga . bgtu gw mulai bosand , tiba2 AYANG sms gw , dy bilang kalo dy KEBANGUN LAGI * knpa yahh ? *
LALUUU ! tiba2 gw terpikir kalo besok itu AMBIL RAPOR .
sumpahhh , tad na gw LUPA SAMA SEKALII . kalo gga gw masi ol FB n liat status temen2 gw yang ketakutan sama rapor na , gw gga akan INGET !
gw TAKUTT !!
pasti BANYAK NILAI YANG MERAH !
GOD , please help me .

nopha.love.ay

MISS HIM !

2009-12-19T01:27:00.000+07:00

uda 2 hari gga ketemu sama AYANG . rasa na KANGEN BERAT . gga tau kenapa sekarang bawaan na kangen trus . yahh , emang gga bisa sih d paksain buat ketemu terus . qta juga punya kesibukan masing2 .

tapii gw BERHARAP banget , semoga gga lama lagy ketemu .

EVENTHOUGH i can see him for only 5 minutes , i'll be happy , OF COURSE .

yah , mau bagaimana agy ?

harus BERSABAR .

toh , kemaren2 itu uda ketemu dy hampir TIAP ARI .

hehehe :)

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